During my childhood, I endured a barrage of hurtful labels, from facing homophobic slurs to being taunted for my appearance. Despite the bullying, I chose not to retaliate; instead, I harbored a desire to alleviate others’ pain, though I didn’t fully understand this impulse at the time. This journey led me down a solitary path, finding solace in music by a riverside, away from the judgment of others. Eventually, I left school and joined the Rainbow tribe, seeking a simpler existence focused on essentials like food, water, and spreading kindness.
In the midst of this unconventional life, I unexpectedly found love and companionship in an extraordinary person who would become my soulmate and later, my wife. Together, we embarked on the adventure of parenthood, facing the challenges and joys it brought. To support my family, I took up work in construction, even though I felt unprepared for the responsibilities ahead.
A pivotal moment arrived when a nightmare shook me awake to the reality of my duty to protect my daughter. This realization intensified when a drunk driver’s recklessness threatened our lives and left us with nothing. Faced with injustice and fear, I felt compelled to adopt a persona of strength and vigilance a voice of dominance, donning a metaphorical mask to shield my loved ones from harm. Only if I knew that this mask was going to make me into somebody else.
As time passed, I transitioned into the role of a stay-at-home father, while my wife assumed the role of provider. This shift brought its own set of challenges and uncertainties, particularly as our daughter prepared to leave the nest. Questions about my identity and purpose arose, prompting me to confront the lingering influence of the protective mask I had worn for so long.
Seeking refuge and purpose, I threw myself into the Gaulish Community, hoping to find fulfillment in service to others. However, amidst my dedication to the community, I neglected to address my own inner struggles and did not see my companions struggles. Burdened by the weight of expectations and self-imposed responsibilities, I realized I had lost touch with my true self.
Now, recognizing the need for introspection and personal growth, I have decided to step back from my commitments to rediscover the light within me so that I can be of better service to the world around me. Just as my last article You are the Magician I have to live by my words ( As being a follower of Ogmios is harsh and hard). It’s time to confront the mask I’ve worn for too long and reclaim my authenticity. Though this journey may lead me away from the community temporarily, I remain grateful for the support and camaraderie it has offered. As I embark on this path of self-discovery, I trust that the flames of inspiration within each member will continue to burn bright, sustaining the spirit of the Gaulish Community and yourselves. You all are the flames.
I will be in the Alchemist Furnace following the Raven.
Dêuoi cantite
The Witch's and Druids Den 
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